I'm trying to not be excited about it, because historically whenever I make plans for my birthday, or actually get excited about being happy for my birthday...something extremely horrific happens. Case in point last year I didn't even get to celebrate my birthday because we had to go to Iowa because my grandmother Ramona died.

This isn't a recent trend either...my paranoia about my birthday has been happening since 2001, when in February my maternal grandpa Ralph died, so we went to Iowa. When we came back up from Iowa we had a small birthday celebration, trying to be happy, and then a week later my grandpa Gary died. It was just a shitty time. Since then I've felt like I can't be allowed to enjoy my birthday, because whenever I do I either get depressed about my grandparents passing away during my birthday or something else bad happens to ruin any chance at fun. Last year in February my step-grandpa Sonny passed away too, and that was even more of a shocker because his ex-wife and children didn't even call us (he and my grandma had a mutual divorce a few years ago), so we found out about his death in the newspaper obituaries. I mean if you think of all the weird coincidences in the world it's really sad to have an aura of death around your birthday.
But this year...this year I'm really really really hoping is different.
This year is my
Golden Birthday. I am turning 24 on February 24th. It is also the year of the Snake, which was the zodiac year I was born in. I mean the numbers are just adding up, so this is going to have to be like the luckiest birthday ever I'm thinking. Right? Right?!
My husband and I are planning a night at a hotel, just to get some alone time from my family. We chose a hotel with a water park so we can have some fun swim time and then just relax and maybe go see a movie or something.
So I'm really really hoping my bad luck with birthdays will be over. Please please please.